Sketchy Entity of Mine

"Babumosai

Zindagi aur maut upar wale ke hath mei hai zahapana,

Ushe na toh aap badal sakte hai na mei.

Hum sab toh rangmanch ke katputliya hai, jinki dour upar wale ke hath mei bandhe hai,           
Kab, Kaun, Kaise uthega, yeh koi nhi bata sakta hai

Hah Hah Hah Haah"

(Say it in Rajesh Khanna's voice, you will enjoy it)

These are just mere lines or you can say that these are some movie dialogues. But just read it again and think once again. Life right! Our small life. One dies due to lack of vitamin and suddenly someone comes to you and gives you sweets saying," Meri Beti huwi hai." Just imagine this scene in a backward slum area. Imagine the life of that newly born girl, her struggles, her responsibilities, her inadequate childhood, and her lifestyle. Injustice right? Now see yourself and your house once, You would somehow be satisfied. Will you like to interchange yourself with that girl? No right. I think it's because you got justice. But both of you will die one day. What's the mere difference? 

No one gets everything in their life but at least we have our lips through which we can smile, You have the right to be happy. You can talk indefinitely and to anyone. Dance, sing, help others, and enjoy your life. You have the right to break barriers. Don't just cage yourself in social media. See the beauty of this real-world and with your own eyes. And Remember time is limited as there might be others waiting to come to earth and express themselves. You got the eligibility to live in your dream, then why don't you fly? 

You will get nothing in procrastinating your death. Let it be where it is. We don't know when we are gonna die. Don't fear death as it's inevitable, According to me, we all are sent here, on this planet as worker bees, to do some important work and when it's done, you are called upon. See, everyone has their own beliefs and we all should have one. That gives you some power to live. 

Now Me

I take life as a principle. It will be me who will decide my life, each happening. God choose me by thinking something and I am just living to understand that thought. And I know, that thought would be simple but amazing. I just have myself, two tables, a phone, a laptop, a cupboard of books, my bed, three walls and windows in my personal space. It's enough. I don't want anything else. I can build my whole world here. Every day and every moment, I just look out of those windows and think. Just think. I think about myself, my parents, my friends, the moments with them, the misunderstandings with them, the society, India, Space, Time machines, the human body, and definitely, the infinity. Everyone lives their life but I want to live my life in a different sense. Something which others can't do, only I can do. I try to find it out every day. 

Ya, I will grow up one day and be free to be packed up and sent to some wonderful places. Whenever I find a good place or a good thought, I put it on my bucket list. I just wanna make you feel something--

Pankaj Tripathi in one of his interviews said out of elation that he has that madness to go at the point of origin and the finishing point of every river in India. He has been to many and just enjoyed it. He points out that those travels have not to be in luxury, there are adequate dharmsalas, trains or small buses to take you to those places and at very low cost. He also said that he enjoyed the grass-root level cultures of India. Just look at his wonderful thought, such peculiar idea. Just immediately after that interview, I introduced this idea to my bucket list.  I will go to every idea of mine and enjoy that and I will just fire anyone that stops me from doing that.

But       

Lockdown has just crashed my mind. Jammed kind of. When I start to think something, my brain says," I am awful now." Life isn't that amazing now. The same routine every day and that too its summer now. It's like you had planned for a solo trip to Europe and everything was going well. And then suddenly in the airport you fell and broke your leg. You feel like crying for about 100 days but there's no option.

I just wanna find that person who said that damn line," Life is way funnier after leaving school." It's damn boring. I find myself stuck in the middle of that roller coaster ride and the servicemen are in sleep. I didn't get a call for the past 2 months or so. I just wanna hear my ringtone again. There are only notifications.

"I wanna be normal again. Just wanna go back.

Why everyone feels that we need to be preserved? Let us open up "

Ya, so that was it. For the past 15 days, I was writing many things but didn't get that aura to publish those. Some things were missing in those unpublished blogs. But this one is complete and I am happy to release it at last. Tensed moments. 

Lots of love and hope. Comment, share, and do whatever you like. I just want you all to be alive and happy as always. Good days are awaiting us. Bye-bye.